Adjustments

It's 12:54 am, the clock is ticking, I'm up and it's pretty late. I'm supposed to be sleeping at this time because I have to wake up early, but before that I reckon to write a blog entry about stuff that bothered me or left me curious.

Things has changed, a lot, maybe especially when you experience new and different things in life or stress or when you get into all sorts of relationships with friends and lovers. I miss the old, innocent days when I used to view the world as pure, kind and cool where I have nothing to worry about but homework. Now that I'm growing older, things are changing, my views, but I'm still myself, I might have changed too as well, and you too, ofcourse.

First ever realization was when I was sick. Everytime fever hits me, I recover and my outlook of the world changed. Sounds weird but I don't know. It must be some sort of hormone function stuff I guess. I'm not sure and my body's really fit and healthy this year so I don't know.

Secondly, past experiences, especially the previous two years. I experienced an oil tank of stress that made me forget many special events that occured before 2004, funny and weird it seems. I moved on from all the experiences but then I realized that it made a huge impact on me especially some things but I don't know particular which. Sigh, I don't know. Leave it.

Thirdly, present relationships. My friends, most of them are leaving, some left already. Most of them being asses right now. People come and go but hell, that sucks. I say keep in touch if you're reading right now and much love.

I'm currently adjusting. I usually have someone to talk to at this time of the midnight but that person's gone and hopefully, temporary. Oh, yes, I found a way to go back in time but I won't. ~

Laziness arrived, knocked at my door angrily. I shall go.